A Tough Day but All I See is Hope

Liam had a bit of a rough day today. His nausea is back and he was not able to keep any food down until this evening. His doctor is not worried as she feels that it is due to his body adjusting as they begin to wean him off the steroids. He was upset as he was having a bit of trouble getting both of his legs to go where he wanted them to go. He is extremely tired and not being able to keep down much food again could also affect his coordination. We explained to him that this is normal part of recovery and as the swelling in his brain goes down, he will get stronger. It is hard for a kid who loves to run and play. We will be meeting with physio tomorrow and they will help us work on this. His respiratory therapist came in today to give him a tool to help make sure that his lungs do not start to deflate at the bottoms because he has been in bed for so long. They have made the exercises for this a bit of a game so he did like doing this today. Yeah!

We did have a few smiles today. One when he saw that it was snowing outside. I think he even gave a bit of cheer! And the second was that he watched about five minutes of the Toronto Santa Claus parade before he fell asleep. He loves the bands and the floats! I told him that he and I will have a date to watch the Rose Bowl Parade over the holidays as it is my favourite! I think I inherited this from my mom as she loves it too!

Tonight, I am home with the kids. It is good to be home again even if it for a short time. It is funny how life is so different for us right now. I was reading my big study bible tonight. I love my bible with all it's marks and personal notes and dates. It is the history of my journey with the Lord. It is the story of me. My struggles, my joys, my pain and my delights. There are notes about them all here. Scriptures I have prayed for friends and children and our family. Prayers of thankfulness and praise that I have written in the margins. I know in my head that we have been walking through a valley and yet as I write in my bible this evening I am noting His beauty that I have seen along the way. And only one word comes to mind, "hope". As I close my bible for the night (mostly because I am so tired the words are starting to blur) I will leave you with Psalm 130 where I have made my last notation about Hope.

Out of the depths I have cried to You, O LORD.

Lord, hear my voice!

Let Your ears be attentive

To the voice of my supplications.

If You, LORD, should mark iniquities, O Lord, who could stand?

But there is forgiveness with You,

That You may be feared.

I wait for the LORD, my soul does wait, And in His word do I hope.

My soul waits for the Lord

More than the watchmen for the morning;

Indeed, more than the watchmen for the morning.

O Israel, hope in the LORD;

For with the LORD there is loving kindness,

And with Him is abundant redemption.

And He will redeem Israel

From all his iniquities.