Sunday worship with Liam and a lesson

I am typing this post from our home. Jason is staying with Liam tonight and I drove home to the house to surprise our other three children. Much attention has been paid to Liam since his diagnosis and many of my posts have been about him but God has blessed Jason and I with three other wonderful children. They too are "fearfully and wonderfully made" and God is drawing each of them closer to Him through this trial that we have faced together. It is wonderful to be able to see God molding and shaping them into who He wants them to be. I got such special hugs and attention from them tonight when I arrived home and it was hard to hold back the tears. Daniel and Caroline make Jason and I so proud as we have watched them try to support Liam, us and their grandparents through this time. They never complain, they always pitch in and they are Liam's most faithful prayer warriors. Trinity Joy, our youngest at only three also loves to pray for her big brother and she is always there for a giggle. It is good for their mommy to be home with them.

Our day today, started off like most Sunday's with church. Although we could not worship with our church family, who we missed terribly, we hosted church right in Liam's hospital room. Liam, Jason, our friend Cheri and I gathered to sing praises to our God. It was Liam's request morning and we started with "I love you Jesus, deep down in my heart". Liam sang and played drums on a box we got him, while Jason played guitar. We continued to sing for a while, we read some scriptures that people have sent us and that I had picked and we prayed. It was a very special time. Although, we did have to close Liam's door, Liam's wall is one big window facing the hallway, so everyone could see what we were doing and I am sure they probably could hear us too. Yeah God for more moments of opportunity.

Liam continues to do well. He is eating and walking for short journeys down the hallway. They did cap off his last IV that is in his neck and started to give his medication by oral pills instead. Pray that he will continue to keep food down so that he can stay with this type of treatment instead of the IV. The itching of his head is still a problem and he and I did not get a lot of rest last night. Pray for a restful sleep for both Liam and Jason.

In the past this blog has always been about lessons that I have learned from our extraordinary God. Tonight, I thought I would share one with you. As I have walked the halls of the hospital, praying through my own struggles, I have noticed the halls are never empty. Someone is always walking deep in thought. I have looked at their faces and wondered about their stories. I have wondered who they are worried about and how they are coping. I have prayed for these people and their stories that only God knows. I think part of what God has been teaching me during this time is to give me a better and maybe more informed glimpse of what Jesus sees. Sometimes you physically see the pain on their face like the mother we (Tat, Brigitte, Liam, Jason and I) meet and prayed for in the lounge this afternoon. Many times though you don't see anything different. They walk past and they smile politely because that is what they are suppose to do but it is not how they feel. It also does not make their pain any less real. I know this because I too have smiled while inside my heart was breaking. I have often heard our Pastor, Jim Danielson, say that we should always greet everyone, like they have a broken heart because they probably do. I have always thought that was a good idea and wondered why sometimes I don't. God is teaching me more about the compassion needed and a better understanding of how impossible it is for me who did not make the heart to mend it. I am called to be Jesus hands and feet here on earth but I can not mend hearts. That is the Makers job alone. I pray that Yahweh who is the maker of all hearts will draw those that I meet in the hallway closer so He can fix what He alone created. As you head out tomorrow please pray the same for those that pass you in your hallways. God Bless and good night.